Tuesday, October 19, 2010'?
This 299th seemed dull. Never had this experience in the past.
Since that day till yesterday,my lips just wouldn't form words; tongue gets stuck to the root of my mouth and throat tightens up. I knew that all I could do is to wait for the right time or the time you become honest.
Though there is a sky of things to tell you about how I feel after knowing, i become mute and hold off telling you about it.. And this is something that has always been on the tip of my tongue to tell.
Guessed as much, I made the wrong move. I should have just wait and kill my curiosity way before yesterday. However, i have given you chance to come clear. Nothing was done and you don't seem to be apology.
For all I see, blames are pushed to 'others'. The 'others' that you loathe. Now that you are beginning to touch those deadly sticks which will only damage your health and it's something I irk about. All i hope is you will not transform to someone i have never expected you to become.
The thought of letting off still stand. I am willing to wait for the day you speaks. Honesty is what I am hunting for. Irking attitude of mine, makes you unhappy. All you see is my attitude, but what about my sadness and disappointment. Did you see it?
I put in so much effort and always have been proud that I did to make you quit. I thought I've succeeded. It has all went to the drain abruptly. Tell me, perfect it and not let go. I am standing just right at the edge.
Guys don't know how much little things can upset a girl.